February Learnings

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February. The month of love. The month of newness. The month of hard work. This was one defining month in my life this year. It was a month of learnings. A month of strong bonds. Month of strengths. And a month where I found my calling. A month where I realised that the profession I somehow chose was somehow something I loved doing and in a way made me passionate.

February brought me anxious pangs and trying to cope up with life moments too but I had no complaints. For it made me an ever more ambitious person who knew it’s possible to live your dreams.  It taught me that it was worth sticking to your resolves for in the end it’s your life. February brought me my first job finally after a long wait. Though it was temporary, I was in a field I always wanted to be in. Lot of people called me stupid past year or so for not doing anything that comes my way but thanks to supportive parents I never lost it. And it was worth it. For if I had chosen a more hectic job and different field I would have not have been this happy and satisfied. I might not have not stuck in that workplace for long but it was all worth it.

February also made me closer to certain people in my life who made sure I sailed through that first stressful month of work smilingly. I will cherish that person for that always. February was also about friday socialising. It was about comic cons and birthdays. It was surprise plans and lot of HKV visits. It was about lot of love and hugs.

February was also about lovely students. My first batch of students who made me love my profession. They were the ones who made my day even when I had bad woken up moods. They were one special batch. February was about plain hard work 24X7 to be the best. It was about proving to all that I am the perfectionist and hard worker no one sees. It was about learning to teach older students and learning the art. It was making my profession into my passion.

February was about lot of things. But in the end it was about finding the much needed peace and happiness for my soul which comes from taking first steps towards satisfying future.

Love sprinkled around
In the mist of mornings
In anxious early travels
In new beginnings I saw.

New phase, new moments
In taking baby steps
In turning victorious
Every second moment.

New pressure, new plans
In working the hardest
In giving the best I knew
In learning art of survival.

New bonds, new loves
In the evening outings
In warmest of embraces
In the hand that held.

New smiles, new laughs
In the weekend coffees 
In the impromptu visits
In the memories of a life.

New surprises, new happiness
In the secret expeditions 
In the circle of friends
In moments to cherish forever.

New passion, new satisfaction
In the confidence found alone
In the passion of loving it all
In the yearning to be the best.

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Written as Part of the Month of the Year Writing Prompt 2014-Season4

Hopeful January

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When I first started writing this post, it was just some poetic lines and then I thought something was amiss. I went back and read my posts for the Month of the Year Challenge and realised I mostly used to go for random heart to heart writings in this challenge and always loved it and so why change something which made me happy.

So, I think I will stick with the format and mix prose and poetry in this challenge this year too. I just hope I don’t bore you people much.

I am still aghast at the fact that the year is ending. Just two day back, at a meeting a colleague went ‘Oh the year is ending’, and we all went ‘Gosh. Where did it go?’ and I silently smiled. For somehow this was one sane and comparatively happy year that I spend in a long time.

January brought the much needed hopes and I welcomed 2014 with way too much hope then anyone could even think. Maybe it didn’t lived up to all but then the year didn’t do bad in most areas. I wanted lot of things on the professional front. They were fulfilled to a lot of degree as I loved doing whatever I did professionally this year and I hope the remaining wishes are fulfilled in 2015.

January was about the december that had gone. It was about the smile left after meeting one of my best friend after 2 years in december and the night out that was just about smiles. It was about the new found creativity and the new muse who gave a lot of poems to this blog. I am just glad he ended as just another muse. It was about reminisces and nostalgic memories.

January was about meeting school besties. It was about the gossip sessions and smiles. It was about happiness. It was about the love triangle of us three. It was about cold evenings and long travels. It was about love that stays inspite of all the distances in between.

January was also about new bonds and friends. It was also about failing expectations and hurts. It was about new learnings about humans. It was about learning to let everyone go for your happiness is the most important achievement. It was about new found maturity and care. It was all about priority. It was all about me.

January was about much waited interview calls and hard works. It was working towards something I wanted. It was about skipping some events to fulfill your passions. It was about your work being something that brings the glow in your eyes. It was about conquering anxious pangs and coming out victorious. It was about the feeling when the ‘first work day’ comes. It was about giving your best to something you always wanted. It was about proving all the discouragers wrong.

January was about lot of things. But most of all it was about me. Just like the year was. It was about finding me in the smiles of passion.

New beginnings, new hope
New year, new smiles
I called it love
As the year dawned.

Smilingly waved away
The year that went
And memories of past
Left me enough happiness.

A new muse, a new smile
Some  warmth around of good
Creativity and passion got meshed
As the wintry january was welcomed.

A renewed strength was found alone
After a year of just endless waits
A month that gave me light somehow
The month I realised, year will be good.

Of beautiful feelings, of different writings
Of reunions, with one’s I call my bestest
Of laughters, and love, that filled me
Of tests, of impatience, of goodness.

Of new found friendships, of new carings,
Of pains, of hurts, and  lot of fun
Of facing my fears, of facing the unknown
Of new starts, of finding, my own end.

Of anxious learnings, of prayers and fears
Of hope to prove, of taking one more step
Of that winter, that ended up most fruitful
Of all that, the next month brought forth.

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Written as Part of the Month of the Year Writing Prompt 2014-Season4

P.S. : With this post, I take part in the second writing challenge this year and hope to finish it. This is for my dearest friend  Lady Nimue :)

Love

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Hello everyone,

Life have been just very hectic and I had to let go off #OctPoWriMo in the last days. But its unfair I couldn’t complete it so I thought even if late let me just finish it today for it was something I took to challenge myself :).

So here to the last three days :)

Day 29

Love that was mad, I say
Consuming all that was me
Blissfully unaware of all
I lived in it madly each day.

Taught what nothing else could
Breathed in it, what others wanted
Heaven was his embrace, all together
Left me in shackles, to strengthen.

Seeking that love, in infatuations today
Gratitude I carry, for it did happen
Prayers for little bit more of it today
Even if less, but consuming I want still.

Day 30

On the day before, he decided to leave
I knew this was it, even if he didn’t
Taken aback was I, by lot of what he said
Shaken, yet I stood still, that moment.

Last night I call it, for what was  ‘us’
For what remained was, you and I later,
Yearnings and hurts sparkled in tears
A long darkness I saw later, but I lived.

Never forgotten,what the day before was,
Decisions I stuck to, for long even afters,
Today I feel the peace within, with bruises,
For today, my heart still knows, pure love.

Day 31

Writing whatever the heart felt,
In verses, in brief, in elongated terms,
I smile at the poetry, the month gave to me,
Almost missed the challenge, yet I wrote.

Scarcity of time, loads of work that brain had
Yet, peace was found, when I sat to write
A journey, to find, what I was loosing within,
Words, that were my love, were found somehow.

Experience, of joys, and pains, but still worthwhile
All penned, and shared, flowing out in the world,
Feeling, I didn’t know, were waving out to me
And today I smile, for somehow I lived to my promise.

Written as part of OctPoWriMo Writing Prompt Day 29: For All the Loves You’ve Loved Before , Day 30: The Day Before…Day 31: Poetry Writing Challenges

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P.S. : This is for Morgan Dragonwillow  for she pushed me to take up this challenge inspite of a busy schedule. Though I left in last few days, I am completing it still for myself :)

Him

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I yearn, I starve
I seek you, or not
Hunger, for passion
Hunger, for ambition.

Joy in your presence
Assures all my hungers
Your dilemmas play a game
Still, I circle around.

Yearning for company
For some love, some lust
Your double meanings
Your confused persona.

Heart seek your genuity
Head fears your playfulness
I move with the flow everyday
Quenching my thirst, with you.

Written as part of OctPoWriMo Writing Prompt Day 28: Hunger+Secondary Emotion=Your Successful Poem