Every year when I say goodbye to a year, I try dumping all the negativity into a bin and open my arms to embrace the next beautifully. Winters do that to me and I am just so glad. Last year had quite a tricky december and so the year that came followed suit. But then dark clouds went as the year entered its second half. And if I believe in signs, I think all negativity has somehow gone off thanks to the beauty that was the second half of my year.
So let’s analyse what all this year gave me and what it took over and be glad for whatever it ended up being. This is gonna be a lot like the month of the year challenge as I am clueless what to be glad for and what to erase. So let me summarise each month seperately. Let me be rhythmic a bit, for that is how my brain works the best.
The year that was, the year that is
Full of struggles, and some sweet fruits
There were quit bit of tears, yet some smiles
Yet never left me empty, when I couldn’t take.
The year that was, I know it as tiring
Started with blunders, gave some respite
Here and there, it tested me often
But while going, gave me only smiles.
January brought many dilemmas with it
Lost was what was my favorite place to be
Hurt it gave, like I can still not forget
While leaving, gave me a tinge of sunshine.
To overcome hurts, made me meet guardians
In name of colleagues, I met worthy humans
Sometimes being asked is all that is worth
And with it comes smiles that make us glad.
February O february, when did you come and go
I don’t even remember the supersonic speed
It was like a superwoman entered in my life
Handling it all in a day, I tasted my capabilities.
In between all the rush I made few memories
Met a friend who made me all smiles with talks
Danced and laugh on the d-day of another
In all and all, it was a great month for a while.
March you came once again, with your usual damper.
Lost on what was mine, hassled the mind as usual
Dark thoughts and anxious waits made it impossible
Like it was the end of another of the world.
Still, it wasn’t half as bad as one might think
Some beautiful conversations with people we like
Or some baked midnight surprises made it fine
I was just so glad I somehow did survive.
April is most often the special birthday blues
It was good in phases and that made it fine
Kept trying for some good times with hope
It was sullen in many ways yet I was sane.
It brought some girlies outside the screens
I learned how to have fun on off with them
Made pre birthday the most fun in laughter
And cake surprise on the day was the stealer.
Summer was going off just like that
Mostly in sickness, rest in stress
May was my baby’s birthday I remember
June was spent in preparing the next.
I wonder what these months gave me
And I do not know what to say still
But the first half was going off
and I was glad for it this time.
July came, and so did all the tests
Failings were one after the other
Somehow all my merits were short
And I was sick of all that wasn’t mine.
Just like that even August went
I have no idea what it brought
I now think of it as the month
That was last of the worst I saw.
September brought with it some respite
Another beginning, even if not as wanted
There was something that worked again
And smiles were around just like that.
October brought some muse as I wrote much
Work and pleasure were combined in own ways
A twin visited from across the shores
Laughters and friendship mingled in smiles.
November was end of something nice
I see it as the premonition of good times
It was something which was mix of it all
Work was light, family tight, friends near.
Like a sunshine, beautiful conversations
Or maybe a kissed sunshine of my heart
It brought visit from the other shore
Of friends held deep in the heart.
December was lot about positivity abound
It was about the believes and attraction
It was about the winter and the chill
It was all about smiling for I feel
It brought famed coincidences to me
It brought money I was awaiting
It brought celebrated drunkenness
In all it brought my writing muse.
Year o year now you end and I thank
For deleting once that never cared
Bringing and keeping ones that did
For filling me with only hopes now.
I see the year ahead as with only hope
For it is meant to be my destined year
Filled with gifts I desired all along
And love that resides in its corner.
Thank you 2015 for existing. Thank you for all those who disappeared without a bye. Thank you for ones who came and filled me with happiness. Thank you for the smiles and laughters. Thank you for friends and acquaintances. Thank you for the lessons of a life time. Most of all thank you for all those satisfied works. As you go, I flush off all negativity, I forgive all that hurt me. You all be history. I wish for only smiles of positivity now on.
I await you 2016 with beautiful warmth.Prove me right and be the one I forever remember.Be all that and lot more as I see. Be the dreams I never saw. I love you, new beginning.
Happy New Year 2016 to all of you lovelies. Hopefully I write more in the new year :)
P.S. : Sorry for a rather long poem but had to do it.