Goodbye 2015

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Every year when I say goodbye to a year, I try dumping all the negativity into a bin and open my arms to embrace the next beautifully. Winters do that to me and I am just so glad. Last year had quite a tricky december and so the year that came followed suit. But then dark clouds went as the year entered its second half. And if I believe in signs, I think all negativity has somehow gone off thanks to the beauty that was the second half of my year.

So let’s analyse what all this year gave me and what it took over and be glad for whatever it ended up being.  This is gonna be a lot like the month of the year challenge as I am clueless what to be glad for and what to erase. So let me summarise each month seperately.  Let me be rhythmic a bit, for that is how my brain works the best.

The year that was, the year that is
Full of struggles, and some sweet fruits
There were quit bit of tears, yet some smiles
Yet never left me empty, when I couldn’t take.

The year that was, I know it as tiring
Started with  blunders, gave some respite
Here and there, it tested me often
But while going, gave me only smiles.

January brought many  dilemmas with it
Lost was what was my favorite place to be
Hurt it gave, like I can still not forget
While leaving, gave me a tinge of sunshine.

To overcome hurts, made me meet guardians
In name of colleagues, I met worthy humans
Sometimes being asked is all that is worth
And with it comes smiles that make us glad.

February O february, when did you come and go
I don’t even remember the supersonic speed
It was like a superwoman entered in my life
Handling it all in a day, I tasted my capabilities.

In between all the rush I made few memories
Met a friend who made me all smiles with talks
Danced and laugh on the d-day of another
In all and all, it was a great month for a while.

March you came once again, with your usual damper.
Lost on what was mine, hassled the mind as usual
Dark thoughts and anxious waits made it impossible
Like it was the end of another of the world.

Still, it wasn’t half as bad as one might think
Some beautiful conversations with people we like
Or some baked midnight surprises made it fine
I was just so glad I somehow did survive.

April is most often the special birthday blues
It was good in phases and that made it fine
Kept trying for some good times with hope
It was sullen in many ways yet I was sane.

It brought some girlies outside the screens
I learned how to have fun on off with them
Made pre birthday the most fun in laughter
And cake surprise on the day was the stealer.

Summer was going off just like that
Mostly in sickness, rest in stress
May was my baby’s birthday I remember
June was spent in preparing the next.

I wonder what these months gave me
And I do not know what to say still
But the first half was going off
and I was glad for it this time.

July came, and so did all the tests
Failings were one after the other
Somehow all my merits were short
And I was sick of all that wasn’t mine.

Just like that even August went
I have no idea what it brought
I now think of it as the month
That was last of the worst I saw.

September brought with it some respite
Another beginning, even if not as wanted
There was something that worked again
And smiles were around just like that.

October brought some muse  as I wrote much
Work and pleasure were combined in own ways
A twin visited from across the shores
Laughters and friendship mingled in smiles.

November was end of something nice 
I see it as the premonition of good times
It was something which was mix of it all
Work was light, family tight, friends near.

Like a sunshine, beautiful conversations
Or maybe a kissed sunshine of my heart
It brought visit from the other shore
Of friends held deep in the heart.

December was lot about positivity abound
It was about the believes and attraction
It was about the winter and the chill
It was all about smiling for I feel

It brought famed coincidences to me
It brought money I was awaiting
It brought celebrated drunkenness
In all it brought my writing muse.

Year o year now you end and I thank 
For deleting once that never cared
Bringing and keeping ones that did
For filling me with only hopes now.

I see the year ahead as with only hope
For it is meant to be my destined year
Filled with gifts I desired all along 
And love that resides in its corner. 

Thank you 2015 for existing. Thank you for all those who disappeared without a bye. Thank you for ones who came and filled me with happiness. Thank you for the smiles and laughters. Thank you for friends and acquaintances. Thank you for the lessons of a life time. Most of all thank you for all those satisfied works. As you go, I flush off all negativity, I forgive all that hurt me. You all be history. I wish for only smiles of positivity now on.

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I await you 2016 with beautiful warmth.Prove me right and be the one I forever remember.Be all that and lot more as I see. Be the dreams I never saw. I love you, new beginning.

Happy New Year 2016 to all of you lovelies. Hopefully I write more in the new year  🙂

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P.S. : Sorry for a rather long poem but had to do it.

Happy New Year, 2013

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Hello, 2013.

This year includes all initial numbers of the number system, 0-1-2-3. So, I hope its a new beginning and a happy one to all.

I have not been keeping well, so just not been blogging much. But, hopefully, if prayers work, I will be well and back to boring you all more. But, this hello in the new year for my readers who were a reason of the smile in the year gone by and hope are the happiness quotient this year too.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013

New breeze, new smiles
Happy mood enlighten
In the year of hope
I seek only warmth
Of love and happiness
To make it the bestest
That life ever sees.

Keep smiling, Keep happy. Spread Love.
Loaaads of Love ❤

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Happy December

So finally the year ends. The only good thing about this year was December ( And offcourse my Nephew :D). Aftermath of lot of retrospect thoughts and certain days dedicated to myself was that I emerged stronger, happier and a better person. I started focusing on reading lot of my academic book and finally realized I can indeed write a good researched thesis. I was not really happy with my topic for a long time as the subject I was interested in was rejected due to ulterior motives of few people and it was something I was passionate for. But then I realized I can work well with the topic I have and link it to the other work in the long run. So in short I am starting to love my work and falling in love with it. And that’s sign of a excellent end product. Because when I love something I end up with the best 🙂

I have been a bundle of negativity and loads of sob stories in the whole year. And finally decided to thrash it all away. I started focusing on getting myself fit. Meditation and cardiac excercises helped me lose weight and made my day happier. I studied with a fresh mind. Read books I love, watch movies when low, loved watching my cookery shows and actually got to have healthy discussions  of work with my sibling (not just fights :P). In short, I fell in love with my myself all over again.

I realized I have some amazing friends I should be thankful for. Friends I can call at anytime of day and they listen, friends who make me smile always, friends who stand like pillars and friends who love me inspite of all my sadness. Friends who are beautiful part of my life and make me enjoy it all the time. I made some new friends, got closer some old friends, regained the spark with my bestest friend and got to know some real good people. I was thankful, I had deleted certain friends off my life who was blot on the word called ‘ friendship’. My parents were learning to see me as a responsible adult. My brother was gaining trust in my abilities. And my relationships with myself was happy and I didn’t needed a jerk for that. In short, life was becoming happier by making relationships and friendships in my life so very stable.

I started believing in my dreams and my abilities. I believed happiness is right across the door and I can reach the zenith of my dreams to make everyone proud. I can end up fulfilling my parents dreams, my brother dreams as well my dreams if I just believe. And God still loves me, so my knight will surely come when I least expect and he will be someone my family will smile to give my hand to :). In short, dreams make me and I don’t mind dreaming all the time as that is just so ME.

And how can I forget, December brought this beautiful forgiveness feeling. I plan to write a last post of this year today about it. Its about forgiving all who made me bitter over the years- my exes, my ex best friends, my brother (sometimes), my sister in law, everyone who hurts and everyone who couldn’t see the real me. I pity the one who couldn’t see the real me and I seek forgiveness for ones I hurt. In short I forgive all and I forgive myself. I forgive myself for the regrets and mistakes because had they not happened, life wouldn’t be the way it is and I wouldn’t be the person I am. I believe the almighty has something beyond perfect in store for me to test me for rather too long. And 2012 is the gift he is giving me to see a glimpse of all the happiness. I know I am expecting a lot but I am not, I am just believing in the year which has my birth date included in it 🙂

Also I moved blogs, turned bit anonymous and all that led to unleashing my creative streak. My muse is back and I have not blogged the whole year as much I did in this one month and I simply loved it. I love the wordpress platform and my template , it gives such a warm home feeling. I might have lost lot of my followers but got to read a lot of good stuff and follow some amazing writers. Thanks to all friends who stuck to me in this change and all the new followers I gained. I love you all.

Beautiful smiles awaited
As December came along
I smiled to welcome
A month of freshness.

I loved the smell
I loved the cold
I loved the books
I love the myself.

I deleted bitterness
I emptied negativity
I forgive who hurts
I forgive me for hurting.

I believed in dreams
I believed in life
I believed in love
I believed in new year.

I would like to thank Purvi  for giving me an award. I cherish it a lot 🙂 . It encouraged me to write a lot more having received the appreciation. Sorry for being late in this post.

7 Random things about me :-

  1. I day dream a lot and actually converse a lot in those dreams right from childhood. Some of those imaginative conversations find way into my writings as well.
  2. I went completely bald twice in my pre-teens- in 6th and 7th standard.
  3. I am crazy about chocolates and actually stole and hid one swiss chocolate when my share got over as a child. Though it was found later by bro but he still teases me about it 😛
  4. I started writing poems more seriously as a result of a major crush on a classmate in college.
  5. My first crush lasted around 5 years. Even more than any of my relationships :P. And I gained back touch with him via social networking after 10 years. ( Though he still doesn’t know about my crush)
  6. I way too sensitive and caring when it comes to relationships with friends, family and people I love. I am a strong personality and come across as arrogant or cold by few people but its some people I am closest to who can only see my weak side. I have had my trust broken a lot and yet I can’t help but trusting people and get attached too much rather soon.
  7. I have grown up with cats and absolutely love them and want to own one someday.

Here are the rules for the Versatile Blogger Award:

  1. Nominate 10-15 fellow bloggers (you’ll find my list at the end)
  2. Inform the bloggers of their nomination
  3. Share 7 random things about yourself
  4. Thank the blogger who nominated you
  5. Add the Versatile Blogger Award Pic on your blog post.

I Nominate :-

  1. Meethi Mirchi– An awesome friend and an amazing haiku writer 😀
  2. Lady Nimue– A very special friend who I own a lot of poetry learning to 😀
  3. Yogesh– A amazing writer, A great cook and an fantastic friend 😀
  4. Tbg – He is the greatest blessing I got in form of friend this year. Word fall short to tell what a great support he is. I nominate you so you blog in 2012 😀
  5. Ms. R.– My twin, My best friend here and an awesome writer 🙂
  6. Nil– She is one genuis writer I love totally:)
  7. Poohi– The girl with the cutest smile and awesome writing style. I Looove her and her poems 🙂
  8. Sulagna– An awesome friend, a great wife and even greater mother. I love her and her blog beyond words:D
  9. Blahblaholic– One of the most cutest girl I know and writes amazing stuff too 🙂
  10. WJ– She is a sweetheart and an awesome photographer. I absolutely love her and all what she writes 🙂
  11. Raaji– She writes magical. I get lost in a different world whenever I read her 🙂
  12. Uncle Jack– His experiences in life are such that each time I read him I learn a lot and to add it all he is such a great human that I am proud to know him:)
  13. Suruchi– Ms Gorgeous who has been with me in my best and worse times. She has a way with words and she just makes me smile with it always 🙂
  14. Kellie Elmore– An amazing writer I discovered recently . She makes me fall in love with words she writes always:)
Keep Smiling. Be happy. Be blessed 🙂