You are Love


You leave me wanting for more
You leave me seeking for more
You sieve through the words you say
You feel beneath the beats of a lost heart.

You are the muse on a rainy day
You are the hope on a lonely night
You are the creation that never existed
You are me, from the different world.

You are the smile on a teary face
You are the touch for a frightened fate
You are the longing sight of embrace
You are the dew on a parched land.

You walk past through the halo I see
You converse through the silences and say
You are the words I often forget
You are the poetry entwined deep within.

You are the observer lost on solitary roads
You are the painter who sprinkles color in shades
You are the melody that turn into masterpiece
You are the peace after a long tiring day.

You are that one argument we desire to have
You are that irritant we want in our lives
You are the love we cannot live without
You are the soul, that makes me survive.

You are the meaningful lines on a blank paper
You are the mystic wanderer we just love to stare
You are that one treasure that is priceless
You are that partner, I want sitting aside.

You are that cigarette, that never burns
You are the string, that is always in tune
You are the prayer, that always heals
You are the hand, that forever holds.

You are the blessing, I seek to keep
You are the unspoken, I just feel
You are the eyes, that reach deep
You are the whispers, you forever cherish.

You are the rain showers, that make one dance
You are the goodness, that makes one grin
You are the friendship, that is beyond words
You are the only one, that can never be defined.

P.S. I wrote this piece in parts and for a very dear friend. This is for you Anurag. You are one great find of friendship for me and a blessing to my uninspired thought. He also happens to be such a great muse to me when all that my brain needs is just some distraction. Also, Anurag you will be forever treasured and loved 🙂

P.S.S. I realised I don’t have a good picture with this sweetheart of a friend but wanted to post something so used an image that defines fights and love of a great friendship.

Goodbye 2013


Hello people, as we say goodbye to 2013, I realised I needed a closure post. An introspectic one and a thankful one. To see what I learned and what I earned. I wanted to just say goodbye to all part and welcome 2014 with a smile. Seriously 2014 I seek lot of nice things from you. So this is what all this year gave as well as taught me:-

Givings of 2013:-

1. If you work double hard, you defend your thesis indeed very well.  And hence will learn the art to manage stage frights and presentations anxiety.

2. Got a Ph.D. degree awarded. Hence, got Dr. sufficed to my name. And it indeed is a wonderful feeling.

3. Gave academic interviews for the first time and each one taught me how to do better than the last one.

4. Became part of a poetry club and hence decided to do something about my love for literature. In the process, learned to give recitations confidently in front of 20-30 people. I love you PACH. Seriously I do. Thanks to you guys I write so much now. Also, wrote 31 poems in 31 days.

Learnings of 2013:-

5. Learned to get over obsessions for certain people.

6. Learned that there are certain people who truly love me.

7. Learned to meet new people, let myself free and in between make new friends.

8. Its okay to have infatuations and use it to unleash your creativity. Mulling over something lost only hurt us and never helps.

9. Sometimes its not important to be friends to have good conversations and good memories. And some acquaintances are there just for a memory and then you say goodbye.

10. Some best friends are for life. They might get married, lose touch and yet will forever value you and be there for you always.

11. Learn to let go people who forces you to love them but never love you back

12. At the end of the day, never ignore parents. They are the only way who are there for you all the time

13. At the end of the day, you are all alone. So learn how to manage loneliness with a smile too.

14. Love yourself. Give time to things you love doing. Also, always have time for a cup of coffee with friends.

15. Never judge anyone. Met new people. You never know when a new friend is round the corner.

16. Listen to good music. Watch great movies. Dance like you flying. Read and write. Just love yourself.

17. Nothing like a baby’s love. Just nothing.

18. Happiness of a birthday surprise post birthday even on a video call is beyond words. For family is special.

19. Be open to love always. You never know when it happens.

20. If your conscious say so, you are right. People are jealous. They might say things. You might do things but if you hurt no one, its okay. No one is born as a sinner or dies as  a saint.

21. Be ready to apologize if you are wrong. A ‘sorry’ is all that is needed at times to mend bridges.

22. Past is past, let it go. Give yourself chance to make new memories. They try to haunt you for they hurt you. You loved them for the person they were back then. You can never love a person like them now. Smile at it and just be happy, it made you the strong individual you are now. You have learned the art to say ‘No’. And always use that word when needed.

23. Sometimes people are just interested in the flesh and not the person. Its okay to have desires for them. So learn to stay aside if you like them for more than that.

24. Stand by your passions and ambitions. They will take you places one day.

25. Never let someone overstep you and use you as a mat. If they hurt you, just give them a piece of your mind.

26. Not everyone worth doing things for.

27. Have fun. Laugh hard. Love madly. Make good friends. Travel. Write. Photograph and life will be good.

28. Work hard and your fate will smile on you.

29.  Just be a little patient and be positive. You never know.

30. At the end of the day, life is good. Value it and take it with a smile for all the precious things it has given you.

I wish all you readers an awesome 2014. I know it is gonna be life changing for me and I wish it is just perfect for you all 🙂

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HAPPY NEW YEAR 2014 to you all.

Live. Love. Laugh 🙂



O how I miss writing. This december something has been missing and today I realised it was month of the year challenge. It was that challenge that made me introspect for past two years. Also, it made me directly talk to my readers and not just give them my creative pieces. I had somehow started liking that random thoughts kind of writing. It made me feel lose and just come face to face with the year that was. The challenge might happen in January according to my friend. But then I might be little bit busy to do justice to it.

But what I miss most is the compulsion to write for I wanted to. Professional things have kept me little bit busy and hence I have been so off social media and stuff that I just don’t write. Also, due to space constraints on the phone haven’t been able to use wordpress there. Sigh I miss it all. Also, I miss my poetry club which I haven’t attended for long.

Somehow I have come to term with facts that if friends don’t value you much, you should not be the first to do the efforts always. And alas, it made me sans friends. I know there are still few I can rely on. Just miss that always in touch kind of friends. Guess its life. But then maybe once the work thing starts I might be too busy to realize that. I have just stop being the caring and all giving kind of friend. People want me to give them all the priority and love and when I expect, well my priority in their life is last. So now I just don’t try. With some very special friends I still try because they do try and only I went busy but with others after many tries I have realized just not worth making fool of myself by showing them to be special and in the end become a buffoon. Sigh I just can’t understand people. I need new people in my life. Till then, family and work keeps me busy.

I met my ex-roomie after long and it was so nice. She is one girl I have always been glad to know. And its awesome I can say that for long because marriage hasn’t changed her but made it more fun as I have been friends with her hubby too before they got married. I plan to meet her more now on. Need to treasure those who value you.  She is one who has always encouraged my poetry and I love her for that.

Otherwise life is a mess. Just nothing working out. Times are tiring. And the hopeless romantic in me misses having a muse. Its funny how as we grow up we become calculated on who to have crush on too for its no longer about flings. But more than crush, I miss that one best friend I can call always as  luckily most of my crushes have been my best friends. Even ex for that matter.

Too many random thoughts this post has for my mind has just too much for the sheer lack of writing. Guess should write more so I feel more sane.

Hope you all doing good.

Hope the self afflicted kind of writer’s block ends soon and I give you all something wonderful to read.

Till then,

Love and spread love 🙂

P.S. Its winters and I love the season 🙂


PACH ज़िन्दगी में मुहब्बत लाया है


आज एक अजब सा सुरूर है इस दिल पे
आज के पल तो लगे हमे कुछ जन्नत की सैर जैसे
आयी हो जैसे मैं कुछ हसीन ख़्वाबों की गलियों से
दिल यूह मचल रहा है पहला प्यार हो जैसे.

यहाँ हँसी है बेशुमार मिलती, जैसे कोई दूकान है खोली
आंसों भी छलक से है जाते जैसे किसी की याद हो थमी
मोहब्बत तो इतनी है बसाये यह, की शयद इश्क बनाना वाला भी घबराये
कहते है अपने को PACH यह लोग, और सच कहे तो दिल के चोर है यह लोग.

याद है मुझे वो पहला  दिन, जब खूब शायरीयाँ लिखवाई थी इन्होने ख़ास
यह लोग बस कुछ नामों के पीछे छुपे थे तब, फिर भी थे जाने कैसे खास
ऐसी मोहब्बत से बुलाते थे, की प्यार की उस मिटटी को ढ़ोंन्ते है हम आज भी ख़ास
फिर वो दिन आ ही गया आखिर, जब इस लड़की को खीच लिया इन्होने तन्हायों के पार.

हँसी मैंन बहुत, उस बारिश में भीगे होए माहौल में
और अश्कों को भी जाने कैसे हस्मुक बनाये गया वोह
कहानियां भी थी वहा, बहुत सी शायरी भी , और कुछ  बातें अन्जानी
बैत बाज़ी कहते है जिसे, करती है वो लड़की जो है too much.

बस एक याद लेके आई थी उस दिन, अजनबियों में भी बात थी कुछ
फिर एक बुलावा आया आज, और क्या कहे बस पोछें ही ना आप तो मेहेरबानी
गयी थी बस बहुत सुन्ने , और कुछ थोडे बिखरे पन्ने सुल्जाने
और खबर न मिली, कब दिल दे बैठी आज सच में PACH और PACHवासियों को.

एक है panda वहा, जो जोढती है सबको, लफ़्ज उसके है जैसे शक्कर की चाशनी
उसकी एक twin भी है वहा, क्या कहे उनके बारे में, दिल चीर के ले लेती है
और है एक छोटा सा packet जिसने सामान  ढोंडते होए बस रुला ही दिया
वो cute shruti और प्यारी sonalika भी थी , बस समझिये दोस्त बनाके आये हम आज

और PACH तो है खाली अगर गोन्जे न कुछ हस्सी की खिल्कारियां
वो लाते है सबसे ज्यादा , जो लिख लेते है waxing तक पे कहानियां
और फिर boss के बारे में तो कहना है क्या , वो तो जब बोलते है तो बेजुबान सब
हँसा देते है कुछ, और मोहब्बत पे यकीन दिलाते कुछ, जैसे वो मेरी हंसों का जोड़ा.

हम तो और भी बहूत कुछ सुनाने की छह में आज बैठे है
बस अभी के लिए इतना, आप भी तो कुछ काम को समेटे है
अब तो वक़्त नहीं थामेगा, ना ही वो बीतेगा बेताबी बिन
अब तो बस इन्तेज़ार है, जाने क्या लायेगा अगला PACH अपने साथ अगली बार.

P.S. GOD what are you PACH. You finally made me write for you and in hindi. You are just pure love. Giving me sunshine and friends and smiles and just love. I Love you tooo tooo much

Copyright of the image I used of PACH lies with one and only PACH

P.S. S. My hindi spelling might be having many errors so forgiveness 🙂