First Love

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When I think of untold words
I couldn’t help but think of you
We have not really had our last word
Yet there is silence about certain talks. 

We weren’t meant to last, for it was fate
I knew it was all about love, yet I accepted
I never knew when I let all boundaries go
For I just want you near, even if unreal.

You know what was that defines us the most?
That was one thing that went astray in end?
That thing which tortured me deep till the end ?
For I desired that you said it at least once?

Trust and honesty kept us together in hard times
No conspiracy, no be-littering worked for we had ‘us’
We knew, all lies melt away, in the embrace
For we knew in the other eyes, only truth spoke.

Today, sometimes I just question our love
Today, I just quench within at your lies
Today, I wonder what is left for you to keep
Today, then I wonder what ties you if it wasn’t love.

The head often says all that was fun
It often says you found greener pastures
It says love was never known to you
And then I wonder what makes you seek still.

I still remember those days when we part ways
I remember your tears and your plead all way
When we met, I had lost all I had for you
Yet I know, life tossed for us since then.

Hard is how I define what was then lived
My lucky mascot was gone in a vaccum
You survived what even my words can’t say
And that makes me wonder maybe love was sane.

I know  you did hid those names 
Maybe you did to save yourself and hurt me less
But then when I think of being the buffoon
I wonder where did my love just go that wrong?

Reality is in front of my eyes, yet I never ask
You still seek the friendship and I am too hurt
We have moved on way beyond our pasts to talk
But then I do seek just one instant where I confront

I seek to question you for all the lies you said
I seek to ask why didn’t you ever trust me as much
I seek to ask you of whose love did you really faked
I seek to ask you just once, why did you spoil my first love?

Written for the OctPoWriMo writing prompt Day 16: Last Word 

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P.S. I wanted to write this piece in a very different way when I saw the prompt. But then the day took my energies and I just wrote it all down as I could forgetting all creativity, for I had to.

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Love Tale

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A daisy
She was
Often tender
Dew drops
Defined her
Melting away
By words
Sought nothing
But happiness
Spread she
Pure smiles
Sugar talks
Simple dreams
Danced often
When jubilant
In dreamland
Lived forever.

Then came
A mate
Who ignited
Infinite dreams
Eyes glitter
Heart beats
Passions felt
Kisses exchanged
Dream real
She felt
Counting stars
Embracing moon
Living heaven
Alive fully
She embraces
True love
Then finally.

He was
Little devil
Plans other
He kept
Within self
Playing safe
He loved
Saying aloud
No promises
For fate
Delusions they
Give her
Every day
Before he
Stab spirits
And heart
She carries.

No fool
She was
Knew plans
Yet convinced
He changes
For love
Saw lies
Saw indifidelity
Believed wrongs
Yet stayed
Strength he
To her
She wanted
It all
For succumbed
Completely was
In love.

One day
Knowing all
Took stand
Tired now
Of lies
Tore heart
Saying goodbye
Ignoring today
The pleads
And cries
He shouted
Other one
Not be
Memories hers
Stored within
Stepped out
She finally.

Soul cried
Bereaved now
She broken
No reason
She found
To live
Said goodbye
For right
Knowing not
To survive
Harsh world
All alone
She tried
Failed again
Numb statue
She became
To dears.

Dark room
One corner
Sleep someone
Tears many
Horror felt
Sadness seen
Love tested
People saw
Mad lover
No more
He dumbstruck
She proved
True love
Engraved name
Of his
On veins
She died.

This is a Narrative Poem

Written for the OctPoWriMo writing prompt Day 7: Narrative Poetry

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Self Love

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Wordless silence adorns me
Deep insight of a bereavement
I anticipate nothing anymore
Lips quiver in frozen fears.

Double faces I saw not
Hypocrisy was never me
Innocence lost, Smirks head
Thus is born another cynic.

Serene was my mind
With every fake word
Comforting in danger lines
Unaware of the lie you.

How best were we
Illusions were all you
Some needs, I fulfilled
Some words, You gave.

I die within again
Reminded of promises, just
And thrashed, for inquistiveness
You liked, I distress.

Broken ties, I anticipated
Shhh, said the love
I wondered, of perfectness
Today laughs, my experience.

Skeptically, I watch vacuum
Heart whispers some lullaby
Reminds of all scars
Given when I skipped.

Another lesson, I presume
Another hurt, I pain
Another warning, I take
Another balm, I want .

Fearless I , just walk
Thorns will prick hurt
Promise another change, maybe
Embracing only, self love.

Till life, smiles again
I blow magical words
I hear, some rhymes
And hope, for love.

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Also Prompted @Inspiration Monday, 3WW, Theme Thursday and Sunday Scribblings.