Love is Like this…

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Lying alone in a dark corner
I often wonder what is amiss
You often said bliss is me
And I said, love is like this.

Memories are often wrapped up
And some of them not worth it
I close my eyes to feel some rains
Petrichor tells me, love is like this.

To escape the loneliness around
I often brew some coffee in a jar
Baking some cake to have a round
Chocolate tells me, love is like this.

Tears are my beloved when I lose
Courage to go on is what I miss
Then some rhythm plays to my ears
Music tells me , love is like this.

My feet have often moved at its discretion
Hearing what my heart feel was its tune
Even in trauma, it could get lost alone
Dance tells me, love is like this

Sky often smiles when I have a dream
Sun plays a game with the clouds
Orchids bloom, as moon play games
Nature tells me, love is like this.

Eyes still dream what I cannot see
Fables in my mind weave it as reality
I scribble it all on a blank sheet
Writing tells me, love is like this

I remember the tiny being that I first saw
I remember the first embrace, and the first word
I smile the most even today when you call me
Nephew tells me, love is like this

I cry when the world just seems insane
Lost I am in work I do most often
Then an embrace just listen and say nothing
Mother tells me, love is like this.

In my weak times I often just blabber to you
You listen patiently, and then make a joke
I laughingly cry in moments like this
Best friend tells me, love is like this.

I sleep everyday to be woken beside you
That morning kiss and sweet nothing I see
I wonder of rains which shower these blessings
Then love tells me, love is believing like this.

Written for the OctPoWriMo writing prompt Day 8: Love is Like…

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Friends who Touch the Soul

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Been a while I wrote here. Maybe lack of time. Lack of inspiration or just lack of myself. But then I had to write today. Not for myself or you but for people I made friends with yesterday.

It is not like I met strangers. I met people I have known for many months now. But the fact that I gel so well with them that it made it all worth it. From decisions that involved meeting one person to two person….to becoming a gang of four and man we had FUN.

I finally let my hair down after ages and ages. Doctorate had just made me such an apprehensive person. I preferred myself and family to friends or new acquintances and then I realised world has some warm nice people too. Some people exist who just know how to enjoy and let you do it without really judging you. And that are the kind of friends I like and so after many many years I made some real friends whom I absolutely love.

Also, I got drunk 😀 Now that was fun considering I had to take a subway to home after that. But then I reached home pretty fine and was like high on happiness and smiles and friends and looove.

It was a trip of food and drinks and gossips and coffee and the madness. It was like long time friends meeting up after ages and it was amazing.

And these guys made me meet myself so I am all in for meeting people, both old and new. And accepting life as it comes. Maybe life brings something nice now on.

So cheeers to you all:-

Apprehensions were many
Of a girl lost in pain
Hurt in the past more
And lonely in the present day.

Then some magic was sprinkled
In the rains full of blessings
As people believed in my worth
And wanted my presence to stay.

I took some steps, you covered others
Silence over powered by voices
Handshake led to empowering embraces
I tightly let you all enter, the heart.

Some intoxication, some foods and smiles
I was happily crazy in a company only mine
Lot to talk and so less of a time
And yet I was sure I made friends, for a lifetime.

I seek to meet you all, whenever I move ahead
To catch you when you fall, and be picked in my shreds
For it happens very less, we meet people loved so
It is like they touch souls, as if soul-mates.

Dedicated to Arch, AB and Aakansha 🙂

Today I say a small prayer of goodwill to us, for you are someone I want to keep with me always. I hope I never make you go away.

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P.S. I loooove you guyyys so much :* ❤

P.S.S. Arch, you are an angel in disguise for me. I really do love you ❤ And Ab you are one of those gem of a friend people wish to have so I love you for being so ❤ And Aakansha you are this cutest sweetheart of a girl. So much love for you all ❤

P.S.S.S. We have to meeet again soon 😀

P.S.S.S.S. The poetry is way too stupid as I lost my muse somewhere but read it as if coming from my heart 😀

Best Friends

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Today I just had to spill it out. If not the ink, then the blood of emotions.  Everything on this page today, will smell of only you.  I don’t even want to sound lyrical, for it doesn’t matter what anyone read of it.  After three sleepless nights, three days of innumerable missed calls, three days of silence and three days of hurts, my heart finally gives up. I know I have often done it this year. Even spoiled my birthday somehow, for it hurts. People and their opinions rarely matter to me. But your opinions do. Always did. Even after two years of being extremely close friends ( many more years of being friends) , it really does.

I still remember that long mail when the disturbed me was pacified by you. You wanted to talk. But sharing numbers wasn’t my thing ever. And then time just went. I know you have managed my typo from the touch screen phone the most.  And I think you revived in me the ability of writing mails and mails. Long ones infact. And how I used to go and on whole day with my issues. And all that I needed was a call from you. And sigh. I think I have told you enough, but let me rephrase, the first time I talked to you, I fell in love with that voice. That accented, deep voice, O man. I can never get over that feeling. I am glad that very day you said, I choose who comes in my life and never let them go.  And then the friends forever promise. I often keep it but it was the first time someone wants to keep it with me.

Offcourse, we have had our share of fights.  One of my male bestie just told me that I can’t imagine you fighting with anyone. I actually don’t, I just go silent. And it hurt us both. Also you have reprimanded me too much for my pessimism and negativity. But I think it is all good. Who could handle my suicidal texts with humour? You only I think. And I actually have often ended up laughing. Also, who could keep texting me on important days to make sure all goes well. I think only you know how to make me laugh on my worse phases and moods. But that doesn’t mean I don’t know you get tired of taking care. You also want to be take cared. I have often tired. But then you are just way too nice to disturb me. But maybe sometimes you can try no?

All that was years back. Our friendship have changed too. We are busy and we hardly get time. Now you are more relaxed with me as my worst phase is over. But then I do have my blues. Also, I complain for I just miss ‘us’ being the more free kinds.  A person who has pushed each and every friend in these few years, kept you close. I survived for you were around. Otherwise, breakdowns I had was too much to be even told. I trusted the belief you have in me.  I test you and myself off late. I know I over react too. But then I just want to steal a piece of you which everyone gets. And often you forget I might be understanding but then I am human too. Am I not? I love and I care and also need the friend. I know I am not your best friend but then I also know how you hate when I say I have no best friend. I love it when you do realize you are my closest.

I think apart from you, hardly any know my personal issues. You think I could ever let you go? I push you off. On my birthday week I even decided I am never ever talking to you. You are my addiction. But I just was too disturbed with the accusations. And your thoughts about my issues. I don’t care what is the reality and not. I don’t even care if I ever see you . But yet I care about you and that be all. And yet, I was forced to give up. All because of the love. I weakened. I chose to never talk of those things anymore. I learnt my lesson. Every time we have fought, I learnt something and never talked on that line. A little of me died but I learnt. Now you see the effect?

Seeking to hear your voice once a month isn’t too much? Is it? Who knows where I be next year. Who knows where life takes us all. Utilizing it till the time is at hand isn’t too much. Or is it? A girl who never listen to anyone, does to you. Apart from 1-2 mistakes, you are always first one to know. When I submitted last july. I wanted to just call you. I might just do it post viva. And yet? I never intend to insult you. Never did. I have been as messed up last three days as you could ever imagine. It wasn’t about me. But me doing such things. I just want you to know that you are way too precious, just like how you considered me special.

You are one of those unnamed relationships which are like forever. I love you abound. You are my bestest friend. I want to share everything. Even when I mess my love stories. I want you to hold my hand and take me to the wedding hall someday. I want you to be the god father to my baby girl some day. And yet nothing will change. I will still throw kisses on you. Flirt in our cute harmless ways. And yet love our respective partners the most. You are the hottest and sexiest man I know. You got the moves. And I am glad I know you.  You are just everything in one. A  best friend when in tears, A lover when I am messed,  A mentor when indecisive, An ideal who makes it all easy. I know how much you try to settle things for me. No one will ever do. I just don’t allow. I might one day and that day you might be you even with me. I know it will come. I just respect you way too much.

Till that time, I just want to say ‘Don’t give up on me’. I am way too impossible. I might want you to know, times ahead are harder for me. Let me cry, and then even wipe those tears. Let us rekindle our friendship every other day. Come what may, just stay aside, even if geographical distances and time zones come between us some day. I want to get old and be the same with you. Even when our kids will go off and I am that crippled oldie, I want to call you and just smile. For in old age, all that matter is good friends.  I also want to make you proud of me one day. Have a place in the universe, where you go and say, hey that is my friend.

Space I need at times. But then don’t doubt my emotions? My actions are never deliberate. They are possessiveness at times. Jealousy at others. But then even you have them. Don’t lie that you don’t. I become helpless at times, I trample and fall. For this world is a mess and my fate even more at times. But when you be vigilant and make sure I get up, it is easier. It really is. People have warned me of attachments. Of trusting. And even keeping  close. But then, others also say you care. And that is all that matter right? You know way too much for me to now go back. I might know nothing. But trust me maybe. Someday?

I think that is all I guess. So how do we conclude? I love you beyond words, sweetheart. And my treats and coffee are pending and I will not leave without having then. Even if  it takes me decades to take it. Also, it is not easy to get rid of me. If you are stubborn about keeping some people close. Even I am. Even more if other person is the kindest and warmest human being. Someone who leaves me in awe at his sensitivity.

So forgive me, maybe? Not just this time but always?

You and me walking the opposite roads
Seeking a place in the universe
Filling hate with just purity
Of love, only we know, and cherish.

Undefined I keep ‘us’, and closed
In the palm of my hands and heart
I desire nothing, and give it all
All I want is your gift of friendship.

My creativity falls short when it’s you
You are not the muse, yet beyond
You are not just special, but beyond
Let us keep it simple, and call it heart beats.

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P.S. : I am glad you called as I was about to publish this post. I know you don’t want it published but still read no? And tell me if you hate it. Thank you for the smiles. Also, yes we can be back to being normal.  I never realized I went overboard. I am really sorry. Never again. But I will be messed more at times, just understand no? Also, I will never be bored of you. Even you don’t be no, please? :*

Also prompted @ 3WW, OSI, Inspiration Monday, Poets United, The Sunday WhirlCarry on Tuesday, Trifecta, Theme Thursday, and Sunday Scribblings

Expressing Through Letters

So here comes me with the big- Letter Tag.

I have always been a big fan of writing because when it comes to expressing on face value, I used to often fall short of words with time. There used to be a time when I used to be kind of a submissive dormant when it comes to people but with time I learned the hard deal and now I tend to be more of a queen of my life. That means people might consider me rude, less caring and a dominant personality at times but then I hardly care because it took long for me to arrive at the personality I don now. So best way to express how I feel has been writings for me- be it creative writings or plain words or maybe just letters. So today, I take up this tag which makes my feelings too vulnerable to the world to express and give outlet to whatever have been stored within.

I know this post might be a bit long as I intent to go expressive with this tag. I thought of writing apt and precise letters which will be divided into parts depending on how many letters I can write in one go. So if you guys can stick along, this post will be interesting and new and I am gonna go expressive with visual treats along the way ….So Enjoy!

Dear Best Friend,

Its really been long since we talked. I seriously miss talking to you on a continuous basis and talking for hours and hours even though it was all but nonsense. I know the fault lies a lot with me. After all it was me who did the disappearing act and even though the circumstances were just too tough at that time, I am glad you understood without asking a word and that’s why you are my ‘forever’ best friend. I know we haven’t caught up for long and I so miss it but I promise we will be back to where we left. I know I must have done some great deed in life for I found you. Even though we don’t keep in touch much but when it comes to the happiest or the gloomiest moment, I have always found you by my side and that one single word from you is all that lights it up. I promise wherever I might be in future this one habit of mine will never change and I know that will be same for you. I am glad we worked out on the distance we once had and today I know even if we don’t talk regularly but still when we do catch up we will be house on fire like we have been meeting everyday and we will can easily move from where we left last. And you will always find me beside you no matter what happens. And yes one more thing- we need to talk and meet ASAP.
Love you loads!

Dear Crush (First)


I consider you to be the fragrance of my childhood which I will always cherish. You came into my life like a magical spring and all the years where you mattered were indeed most magnificent. I am glad I never made you realize about my new found feelings in my past(actually I myself was unaware ) because otherwise it wouldn’t have turned into a honey dew memory. I am glad I was never bothered what people thought about your inclinations towards me because then I would have messed it all. I am glad I was a shy character because when I see it in present I realize there was nothing and if I had taken wrong ideas and took steps I would have destroyed the beauty of the innocence we lived. And somehow I am happy it all happened the way it had to or else things would have been really weird. Though It did made me a little sad to realize you never remembered the childhood ‘me’. But then its good in a way after all even I never knew much about you then. I am glad we got back in touch after a decade and though it was upsetting to having to forcibly make you remember myself. But then it didn’t mattered because you are still the ever friendly guy you were and we got chance to rediscover friendship. I am glad it all happened when there were no feelings from my side. Your past memories just leave me with a innocent childish smile. I hope we will have more of those interacting sessions in the future and they will always be fun. I promise to meet again and chill if ever I visit your side of the world or you come here.And also if I might add I am sure I will never let you know that you were my first crush in reality.
Thanks for the cherished memories.